Stephanie Davis shows off singing voice as she performs emotional song she wrote about mental health

Stephanie Davis has shared a clip of her performing an emotional song about mental health that she co-wrote with a friend.

The 26 year old took to her Instagram stories to share the heart wrenching clip, which sees her singing along as her pal plays the guitar.

Hollyoaks star Stephanie sings in the clip: "I'm smiling but I'm dying inside, they think I'm so happy but I cry.

"'Cause I'm holding on looking for the answers, praying it's not the end, but it gets so hard and I don't get far.

"I'm just praying this pain will mend cos I'm holding on for something I need, holding on. Pray for me, pray for me, pray for me."

Stephanie's emotional song comes just days after she bravely read her 938,000 Instagram followers a poem that she wrote about battling depression to mark World Mental Health Day.

She addressed her fans: "So today is World Mental Health Day. I suffer with my mental health, quite a few things actually. And I find this really nerve-wracking actually, I’m shaking, to talk about.

"I have suffered with suicidal thoughts, being suicidal and acting on it and I started writing a poem one night, just to get stuff off my head because my head’s always on the go, and started writing it out and I thought I’d read it to you."

Picking up a notepad, she began to read: "When you’ve looked death in the eyes, nothing ever feels the same. How do you describe that crying side from the screaming inside of your brain?

"When I was asked how to describe it, the only thing I could say, staring into the abyss, someone’s flicked off a switch, no more light and no more bright days.

"How helpless it feels to be helpless. How painful it feels when those there don’t care. How could they not help me when all I needed was for them to be there?

"To scream out in pain, to cry uncontrollable tears, to hurt myself so much, my life, I didn’t care to be here. To get to that place of thinking that life isn’t for me anymore, that’s a scary place to get to, one I hope nobody has to endure.

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"But the reason I wrote this poem is because I ended up fighting through. I thought that if I just spoke out then maybe I could help you too.

"I can’t say it was easy, but I can say I beat the pain. It wasn’t easy to wake up and fight the fight from the easy option of ending the game. I didn’t think I was worth it, but now I know I am. Other people’s actions don’t define the person I am.

"I thought I was a helpless case, a life that was bound to end. I had to start a relationship with myself, that I now call my friend.

"I cannot say I love myself, but I like myself enough to know that I am worth the fight, keep going and not give up.

"Don’t sit and suffer in silence, get yourself out the bed. Because with the right help, there’s a wonderful life ahead."

After finishing her poem, the former Celebrity Big Brother star explained: "When I was feeling like that, the thing I kept saying over and over was like, ‘there’s a switch gone off in my head, there’s a light gone off in my head, the switch has gone off in my head,’ and I can’t describe how lonely that was and I was alone and I got through it alone and I had to fight it alone and that was probably the hardest thing, but I did it.

"Often our heads can trick us into thinking that the worst option is the best option. Suicide is permanent, it’s permanent. But if you fight the way you’re feeling, the feelings pass, they always pass.

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"I know it doesn’t feel like that because I’ve thought that, you know, I’m screamed out like ‘this is never gonna pass, this is never gonna end," and I can say that I have been in hell and I’ve got through it. It’s always a constant battle but I’ve got hope again.

"I thought I was a helpless case, like I said, so I hope that anybody that’s listening to this and they’re not in a good place, please reach out.

"To your mum, your dad, my family have been great with me, so great. Friends, I’ve got amazing friends. Sometimes it’s easier to talk to a stranger. And don’t think you’re a bad person, because I know I used to think I was a bad person. Because I thought it was a lot to do with the drink and then when I put that down I still couldn’t cope with life and I just couldn’t understand why.

"But I just felt exhausted at the end of the day, exhausted, just because of my head, let alone anything else going on in my life, and I understand now and I have answers and I got the right help and medication.

"You know, if you need that, take that. But don't suffer in silence and to other people who are feeling okay, make sure they ask someone if they are okay and if someone needs your help don't leave them, because you never know what could happen."

She finished her message: "Everyone be kind and spread the love and, you know, like I always say it's okay not to be okay."

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