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Real Housewives of Cheshire star Christine McGuiness has opened up on the sexual abuse she experienced as a child in her new book A Beautiful Nightmare.
The mum-of-three who is married to funnyman Paddy McGuiness expressed she previously struggled with alcohol consumption in order to numb the pain from her traumatic ill-treatment.
In her tell-all book, Christine revealed she was sexually abused from the age of 13. She also opened up about the time she was raped at a party.
Retelling the events, the star penned: "He would take me to his house to watch disturbing videos.
"I never understood what he got out of forcing me to view this extreme violence.
"He’d also take me to places like the beach and after playing in the sea he would tell me he didn’t have any dry clothes.
"I would then have to travel home naked. If we went to a day out at a swimming pool, he would come into the changing rooms with me."
Due to the abuse from her past, Christine has had trouble with her sleep pattern as she believes that her trauma has also affected this.
She continued: "Now I know that’s because he was a paedophile. My sleeping pattern these days is worse than dreadful at the best of times. It takes me ages to drift off and I wake after every hour, or couple of hours.
"And I believe that’s because of the videos he showed me.
"I can’t unsee it and most nights I have nightmares. It’s absolutely awful."
But the star's painful ordeal didn't stop there, as she also shared the horrifying moment she was raped as a teen while she was intoxicated.
Christine said: "It happened at a house party and, as usual, I’d been drinking. In a drunken stupor I got into bed. A boy came in and had sex with me, against my will.
"I remember saying ‘No’ and tried to push him off. I blamed myself massively. I know as an adult it wasn’t my fault, but I think if I wasn’t drunk it wouldn’t have happened."
Coping with her past, the Real Housewives of Cheshire star said she tries to take strength from her trauma.
She added: "But I’m OK, thank God. It’s why I’m really protective of my children, the girls especially.
"I try to take strength out of any kind of trauma. But there was no denying it was awful. To this day, I’ve only confided in a few people about the events of that night."
If you have been affected by this story, contact Rape Crisis England & Wales for free confidential support and information on 08088029999 or their website or 08088010302 if you're calling from Scotland.
* Preorder Christine McGuinness: A Beautiful Nightmare (RRP £20, out 25 Nov) and save £5 with the offer code XA9. Order online at Mirrorbooks.co.uk
You can contact the Domestic and Sexual Abuse helpline on 0808 802 1414 if you are in Ireland.
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- Christine McGuinness
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